Thursday, August 03, 2006 @10:56 PM
I WAS LATE TODAY. A COSTLY LESSON. RASALAS LOST TO TAURUS. ALL BECUZ OF ME. THANKS LATECOMER(ME). I'm dedicating this blog to the man behind the scenes, only he noe who he is .. "thanx ar" , i really appreciated that. The motivation is coming back. My dad fell down lyk 20 mins ago. He's old liao, cant really take too much of a fall. Scared the shit out of me, he was damn calm, but i could literally feel his pain. Even someone as young as me can feel the pain when I slip and fall. Let along someone almost 3 times my age. When he fell , I quarrelled with my mum. She lacked inferential skills, my hands were there READY to SUPPORT my DAD UP ANYTIME. But there she was there say: " dun force him to stand up !" My dad was in pain, but he still said in chinese : " Dun quarrel my child. " At that instant, I felt very guilty. I ignored my mother and asked him where was the pain. He said " Dun be scared my child, daddy can take the pain." Although he did not receive much education, neither is his occupation very fantastic. I was enlightened by his words. I was very scared that he would die any moment. It pricked my conscience, what have I done these years to make him proud ? What have I done to relieve his work load ? Nothing and Nothing. Sometimes I feel that I'm so unfilial. The only thing I can do now , is to study hard and not waste the "blood and sweat" money that he earned. The feeling of losing a loved one , only one who has lost it before will understand. What if tml was doomsday ? You have exactly 1 day(24hrs) to do the things that you want to do. Wad would you do ? I would say I love you to my parents becuz i haven't done that since god noes when. I'm the kind , who will not express my inner emotions easily, I find it hard to do so. Next I would have a reunion dinner with all of my family members, including aunties , uncles and grandparents etc. Have a small chit chat session with them till around early noon(2pm).Next I would go look for HER and ask HER how SHE felt abt me. If the ans is positive, I would bring her to a movie, followed up by a walk around East Coast Park till the evening(6pm). Next I would sit with her on the rocks, enjoy our last sunset together
with her leaning on my shoulder and my arms arnd her. Following that would be a dinner @ a restaurent(Noble House). After that I would send her home to her doorstep, and give her a gdnight peak on the forehead. I would tell her how much I regret not telling her how I felt abt her much earlier. On my way home, I will still make my time worthy by toking to HER on the phone. I would then meet up with the mahjong gang and all my other close frens. Tok trash , slack slack , play mahjong and leave b4 11.30pm. Final Destination would be home again, where I will die with my family.