Sunday, September 23, 2007 @6:24 AM
i dunno y, but the simple stuff she does makes me happy. i really cant stop smiling and laughing. stupid idiot, keep saying she going poly liao, going poly liao =/ studied, dinner-ed, bus-ed and talked to her on fri, found out even more things. sucks la. promos coming. i hope it passes quickly. i cant take much of this. maybe i'm not juz cut out for JC after all, maybe ah gu was right. but somehow i wanna prove him wrong leh. sian. but i know i'm seriously not working hard enuf to prove it. A A A to get a treat from Erin. haha. far loh. C C C i laughing liao.
Getting into a relationship is not lyk ABC or i love u , u love me tt kind of stuff. It's about getting to know the person better 1st, even if it takes a few yrs. its also abt commitment. If u really lyk someone, i think u can pass the test of time. I've came across many couples who are together for quite a few yrs alr. most of them, or rather all of them know each other for quite some time b4 they got together. It's not really surprising. cuz if u rush into things, problems will surface after some time. and how willing are u to constantly think of ways to make urself a better bf/gf. to what extent are u willing to make a sacrfice.
I woke up at 5.45am this morning la. too tired after i reached hm last nite, slp early. blog hopped awhile. then watch tv awhile. and time also passed "AWHILE". ya. 1 hr gone. read many interesting stuff. sian. the sight of books make me puke. but i'll study hard. because i've nowhere to go if i fail my promos.
- those encouraging words really motivated me. "加油. yay. i can write chinese"
- Few are those who see with their own eyes and feel with their own hearts (-Albert Einstien)
Thursday, September 20, 2007 @8:21 PM
sniff sniff, hmmm... wads that sour smell ? i smell vinegar. sourish. someone's jealous ?
after today, i realise that fate lyks to make fun of pple for some strange reason. i mean , wads the probability ? of seeing something/someone, again and again and again and again at 4 diff places in same day ? leaving sch, outside cwp infront of me, then somehow at cwp behind me, even at the bus interchange after i had my dinner at macs =/. woohoo. thanx fate, thanx for making fun of me. but in case u didn't realise, it's an OUCH. It's ironic though, i want to see, yet i dun want to see.
can't seem to concentrate for some reason. too many distractions arnd. i did lyk only 5 chem qns in 4 bloody hours ? wth ? it's so not productive can ? zzz.
the distance and silence is killing me. y shld i torment myself ? hmmm. 6 more days till start of promos, 13 more days till end of promos. cant wait, i really cant wait for it to come. i tell myself things will start to change after tt ... i hope ...
- you are my distraction cuz i can't take my eyes off you.
- I wanna see her but not them.
Wednesday, September 19, 2007 @12:10 AM
sucks, declining productivity. bad bad bad . good start by being late in the morning. partially due to some WRONG info which i received. by a NICE classmate. GRACE PERIOD yeah ? t('.'t)
Games for PE is the LAST lesson i wanna ever miss now. I realised playing hockey for PE is not tt bad after all. haha. especially with all those crappers and jokers arnd. and ermm you know. LOL. haiz. econs test result was CRAP AGAIN. totally CMI. but well well, at least i know what to study for econs promos. just a mere guess, but a hard whack cuz its my last resort. a gamble, but a worthy one. I know this promos is gonna filter alot of pple. i hope im not.
save me from the upcoming disaster.
have mercy upon my soul.
do not devour me.
My life is at stake.
Bring back my focus.
bring it all back to me.
Its not the smiles which matter,
Its not the "hi" which matters,
Its not the waving which matters.
What matters the most,
Is your eyes and mine.
- Looking only from the corner of my eye.
- 8 more days to promos. glhf.
Sunday, September 16, 2007 @11:30 PM
my morale is damn super duper high these few days.
mug lyk there's no tml. sweet.
promoting is my only option. do or die.
i'm was lyk a bird with no legs, flying aimlessly.
until one fine day,
a heavy downpour pinned my down to the ground.
HARD.
and since then, i nv thot of flying again.
COMMITMENT is the word my fren.
am i having the wrong idea ? i hope i'm not.
pursuit of happiness.
- Happiness has legs, grab it before it runs away
- How does it feel to be in LOVE ?
Thursday, September 13, 2007 @8:10 PM
i know i'm not as eligible as ur ex,
i know tt our lifestyles may be different,
i know tt our values might be different,
i know tt u're not rdy,
but i'm willing to wait.
it will not be lyk u said,
it's not just a passing crush.
let the promos decide my fate.
-heaven above, bless her with the strength to go on.
-let her know tt she's not alone ....
typical drama script, but true.
Tuesday, September 11, 2007 @8:49 PM
What I want for Christmas Nxt Year:
http://www.bikez.com/motorcycles/yamaha_fz1_fazer_abs_2007.phpas the promos get nearer, the more fearful i get. the fear of failing. I have more confidence this year. but my test results seem to qns my interllectual capabilities. am i just careless ? or i cant apply what i learnt ? or maybe i just cant make it ? I hope i dun make the same silly mistakes i made during those test in my promos. my chem test was totally a goner. shows alot. seriously. i think most of my teachers have given up on us. i feel really lost at times. it's lyk, i wanna do them proud, but at the same time, i'm not working hard enuf to do it. been feeling very tired lately, due to late nights and earlier sch time. endure. only 2 + more weeks. and everything will be over. glhf. no leavers.
- my absence does not mean tt i'm gone, it juz means tt i'll be there only when u need me.
- LKS ROCKS MY SOCKS (: I <3 LKS
Thursday, September 06, 2007 @11:00 PM
finally back home. after lyk 2 days. thanks to lw and kl for providing me with a shelter. lol.
friends are not always there beside you, but there will be there when u need them the most. (:
haha. although waking up from a nice dreams sucks. but still, it's better to set your priorities right. nevertheless studies still come 1st. the rest can wait. 16th october, the date i look forwards to now. and nth else. wah. i still have loads of revision to do. how ?
oh ya. i forgot to mention tt i did smt damn silly after work last week. tt was to take 960 back to woodlands from sim lim sq. really regret. experience of a lifetime. in bid to save 50cents(cuz i using concession), i was also lazy to walk to the mrt(much further than to the bustop), and my colleague couldn't drive me hm. it was juz a 1 hr journey. almost the same as taking MRT. ask me why, but on msn. cuz its not good for me to say it out here. lol.
-don't lead life aimlessly. set a goal and achieve it.
-nth in life comes easy. work for it.
Tuesday, September 04, 2007 @7:45 PM
maybe i'm really dumb. why can't i juz tell u i mind. it's probably too hard to type the few words. it's probably to selfish of me as well. anyway. i have no right to. why ? why ? why ?
it's really hard to keep things in the heart. better to voice it out. even if it's using another means other than confiding in people.
- gg. game over.
- If only you knew.
-everything was just a dream. but that dream was very beautiful. . .
Sunday, September 02, 2007 @1:37 AM
-所以-
想到了第一次见到你，
你有一种奇怪的魔力，
我感觉到了自己偷偷想靠近你，
想到了第二次见到你，
感觉我并没那么高兴，
因为我发现自己和你的距离，
这是爱情还是你太美丽，
让我作出不可思议的事情，
我只知道我要看你开心，
我什么都愿意 只要能够靠近你，
我只好把我想说的话都放在心里，
因为我只想要你开心，
我知道我会辛苦也会难过但我什么都愿意，
不在乎狂风暴雨不管你在那里，
我知道你和你的男孩有多么的甜蜜，
所以我，才静静守着你，
每一次看他紧紧拉着你手我眼泪不停的流，
也只好默默退后我什么都没说，
静静忍住痛，
very tired now. very stressed. need help.
- Lvl 6
- I only want you to be happy. and see ur true smile.
Saturday, September 01, 2007 @9:14 AM
HAPPY BIRTHDAY FU LI WEI.
just reach hm from lw's hse. went over to slack at his hse last night cuz it is his birthday today. had a couple of drinks. 4 pple finish more than half a bottle of abs vodka. kw drank the most la. then he drunk lyk a dog. but he could still walk and talk. sprouting nonsense. not really nonsense, but juz some dumb things. jq left early. sensible guy.didnt want to worry his parents. unlike some pple out there. who keep playing dota everyday. haha. holidays are in. or shld i say, studydays. it's juz a break to let u catch up your work. lols.
- Lvl 6 ( >100)
- 男女之间不能有纯真的友情吗？(No. Because if a guys treats a girl nice out of the blue, most probably he likes the girl.)