Tuesday, February 28, 2012 @1:20 AM
Dear Piglet,
Everytime I feel like I have alot of things to tell you, i always feel better writing it here instead. At the very least, I can be happy while typing and you can stay happy too! Thank you for still coming to the concert, eventhough I nv tell you that personally. I really wish I would but I think it won't make any difference thanking you in person or thru Line or even just writing it here. And im sorry that I won't come out to greet you all after the performance because I don't reset my emotions after seeing you again. Subconsciously i will still see your random post, your popcorn craving, your ppt hanging, your flu that's irritating you, the song that you shared, the horoscope on scorpio. I really really have the urge to comment but then again, i just felt that you still wanna keep the distance and i shld just leave things as they are and let you move on happily. It took me really quite some time to get over the part of talking to you everyday and i dont wanna get back in the cycle of expectations and disappointments anymore. IT'S MY RECESS WEEK starting today :D :D :D I have tons of work to clear ! like 6 weeks ! you cfm scold me if we were still tgt. HAHA! >< I would have like no time for you :(( We'll im trying to rush finish my work and not lag so much after recess week. Moreover i've got 2 quiz on th first week of sch >:( OH OH I had this like weird dream last night ? I dream that you passed away T_T So i went back to the significant places which we went to when we were tgt and took another photo of the places but this time it was only me alone in the photos. Emo~. When i walked in JP today, I passed by the post office. I recalled how many times it took me to finally send the parcel to your place. Forget this forget that. LOL ! Clumsy silly me. Sometimes we only see what is infront of us and we don't know the process of how hard it took to get the job done. I guess it's the same for your postcards I felt very sad when grace asked me whether i know how much you love me when you were writing the cards. I felt like asking her, you know how much i love her when i wrote the story ;( ? Oh well... Time to slp, another long day tml! GOOD NIGHT PIGLET!:D
Love,
Big Pig
Wednesday, February 22, 2012 @4:08 PM
Dear Piglet,
I had a dream last night, everything seemed soooo real. I dream that you made me a simple personalized birthday card and i was like super duper happy! Then again, a dream is just a dream. Everything goes back to square one again. I guess it's because i kept thinking about it and it eventually lead to me dreaming about it as well. This year it really feels different without you by my side anymore. I find it hard to smile again but I don't want my friends to be worried about me so I have to put on one in front of them. I realised that I lost my biggest reason to be happy in life. I went to look at your profile on facebook again today. You look really happy and I'm glad for you. I really miss you. I cried looking at your photos cuz I know things will never be the same again. I guess this is the form of karma ? Anyway I was the one who let go first. I missed the times we spent together. As the days goes by, we're just drifting apart... further and further apart. Sometimes I really wonder if you will still think about me...
Love Big Pig,
Crane Count:52
Days Left: 1Year 2Mths and 16Days
Tuesday, February 21, 2012 @3:40 PM
Dear Piglet,
It's almost been more than a week since we talked. I think after that night I just pissed you off even more. I just hope that some day we can still be friends again. I tried initiating the conversation by wishing you Happy Valentine's Day but you didn't respond. I guess agnes was right, it's hard/weird to reply to such a thing. On my birthday, I was kinda wishing that you would at least wish me happy birthday via a MSG. Afterall we've been thru so much together. Even if it's over now. It kinda hurts abit. It's hard letting you go and move on but I think the consoling part is I'm less affected by it now though I will still think of you when I'm alone on the train or when I pass by khatib. I guess when I see you moving on with life well I will also be happy for you. Maybe it's really silly writing all these here but I think at least there's a place for me to say out what I wanna say. it definately beats talking to you and becoming emotional again. If god really asked me what I want for my birthday, i just hope that one day when I wake up, it was the day before you flew. I would have learnt to cherish you more when I had the chance to. Sometimes when the pain is too much for me to handle, I really wished that I was dead. But of course I know a greater future lies ahead and my family will need me even more in the future. It gives me a reason to hang in there. For now, i just hope that time will help me to forget you.
Love,
Big Pig
Crane Count:51
Days left: 1 Year 2Months and 17 Days
Wednesday, February 08, 2012 @2:41 AM
Dear Piglet,
I'm glad we started LINE-ing again :) I don't know why, but somehow i kept thinking about the times we spent together today. It's like all the past memory came flowing back slowly, memories that were hidden, memories i didn't remember having, memories that were so happy, memories that were sad. My birthday is coming in 1.5 weeks time and this yr, im gonna be alone. Nobody to prepare anything for me. Maybe i've taken things for granted so it feels so empty this time round. I suddenly recall my first birthday where u bought me to marina barrage for kite-flying. After which we went to an open space at the top few levels of orchard central where i had my mee sua for lunch :) After which we watched a movie at cinne and dinnered at 313. You got me a pair of levi's jeans, i know you have a same one too! You baked me a cake, the first ever someone did for me<3 My second birthday, you brought me to fish and co glass house for dinner and an ice cream cake i had for my 22nd. Although it was not baked by you it was as sweet. You bought me 2 pairs of short, knowing that I would make good use of it in uni. If you're reading this, I know you still love but you're still angry with me. Although i don't say this to you on line anymore, I still love you too LOVE LOVE.
Its hard forgetting someone, who gave me so much to remember..Love,
Big Pig
Crane count: 37
Time left: 1 Year, 3 Months and 1 Day
Monday, February 06, 2012 @7:06 PM
Dear Piglet,
I'm sorry that i'm stubborn in my own way, know that you're still angry with me yet I insisted on meeting today. Thanks for giving in to me :) I know you still love me when my name is still mingjiejie smiley with love, yours is still GINYIEW loveface too. And i also saw your password still 1924. Not forgetting my pictures in your phone too. HEHE! I LOVE YOU LOVE LOVE! I will take this one year plus as a break for the both of us to really think about what we want. If we're really meant to be, we will still be together again. Although you replies are still short and not very encouraging, I can understand. I will persevere to make myself the love of your life again. 09052013. Seems far but it's just another round of NS for me. JIA YOU TO US OK! Make sure we study real hard ! :D I was in the train today and I saw a guy holding his gf's head while she was slping. It reminded me of us tgt on public transports. YOU ALWAYS SLP LUH! I'm the one who has to support you in case you sprain you neck! ><
We spend your lives in search of someone who we cannot live without, not someone we can live with forever.Love,
Big Pig
Crane count: 35
Time left: 1 Year, 3 Months and 3 Days
@1:18 AM
Dear Piglet,
you don't wanna talk about it ? You wanna move on ? It hurt me so bad but i cant blame you. To you, im just a guy who made the wrong choice. Why can't we pass the test together LOVE LOVE? I had constantly hinted to you along the way that I still love you and i always do. I had to beg you, tell you that i'd go on my knees to get a chance to talk to you. How disheartening. more that 2yrs tgt and we cannot stand being one mth apart. You say i dont understand you, then do you understand why i made us go thru all this ? ;( I guess you never will do. I hope that on tuesday. You will still give me the last chance to put things back on track, to correct the mistakes that i've made to hurt both of us so badly. I know that grace will tell you what i tell her, so i had to make sure i told both of you the same story. I LOVE YOU PIGLET! ;( <3 Hope that tuesday will be a get back tgt rather then clean break. If not i rather be off dead. i really refuse to accept the fact that someone can be so heartless.
Love,
Big Pig
Wednesday, February 01, 2012 @12:19 AM
Dear Piglet,
I'm like fighting a battle everyday, I feel you getting further and further apart from me. That wasn't what I wanted ? I was like suppose to get close and close to you de! :(((( What's going wrong ? I havent seen you sent me any initiated msg since we "broke up" and if u recall, i didnt say the 2 words out on 3rd jan. Are we really not meant for each other ? Is this how it's gonna end ? Every night i will look at your picture and cry. Ask myself what have I done. did i just ruin a relationship with my own hands ? No matter how hard i try to talk to the girl, all i thot of was you. DID YOU KNOW ? I don't blame you for your cold replies. I just blame myself for setting this stupid test up. I really want to be with you again. I will tell you on the 3rd of feb ok ? Just wait a little longer LOVE LOVE!
Love,
Big Pig