Friday, May 18, 2012 @3:18 PM
Dear Piglet,
How's work so far ? I see you are working at Ogilvy & Mather >:) Holidays have been quite good so far. I managed to do quite alot of stuff which I wanted to do for a very long time. First thing on my list was to go back to commonwealth, which I successfully did last Wednesday :) I found a super cute AM baby there ! HAHA! She kinda reminded me of the one we saw at the zoo on your birthday. I remember bringing you to commonwealth on our real first date after my H1N1 quarantine because that place really held a lot of happy memories for me! Bo hui is finally reunited with us again! I didn't tell you what happened right ? During the first part of the year we had some misunderstanding and we didn't talk about it until near the exam period. We had our first dinner of the year at 2D1N ! Korean buffet at Tanjong Pagar >< The food was like damnnnnnnnnnnn awesome and quite cheap also ! $23/pax during dinner time but the gotta queue for it. LOL! For some strange reason when I was at Tanjong Pagar, I walked towards Amoy Street Food Centre. Some time a year ago, you were having your internship at Aviva and I met you for lunch there. We had BCM and it was the first time I witness the "tissue packet to book seat" in action LIVE! Something I never told you last time. I could well meet you for lunch every week(Kinda ideal) or even everyday(but I know you won't want this) but I didn't because I wanted to make that one time special. Like pretend I'm not that kind of person who will do it but I do it for you once. Then it'll make you like super happy ? HEHE! Sounds kinda stupid but I just wanted to make you happy. LOL! It's like I know how silly I am writing all these here hanging on to the slightest hope that one day you will come back and read it. At the end of the day, writing here helps me to keep my emotions in tact. At least there's somewhere I can vomit all these thoughts and feelings out. People always tell me to let go and move on, there are many fishes in the sea blah blah blah... I tried, not that I didn't. But how to when everything reminds me of you ? Even my facebook has you under the favourite list and all of your activities will appear under my notification. There were times where I wanted to remove it, but I didn't know how to. Maybe its just an excuse for me to hang on :/ I know its dangerous fueling myself with false hopes until next year when the time comes and everything explodes and I'll feel even shittier than ever. But for now, I just wanna choose the option that makes me feel better. For all we know, there might not be tomorrow. At nights when I sleep alone in my room, I will think of you. I really wish you would tell me you miss me too :'( I'd still have dreams about going back in time and having the chance to make everything right. The most kua zhang one was still the one about waking up back at the time when I was back in secondary school. It was damn sian that I had to go thru O levels, JC1, retain, JC2 and finally NS plus the 9 months emotional roller coaster ride before eventually ending up with you again. If god gave me this option, I'll do it because I felt that everything is still worthwhile. I guess regret makes us cherish what we have even more because we do not have the chance to change the past.
Love,
Big Pig